Friday, December 30, 2011

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (in my dreams :p)


...there's always hope, if you believe - hope floats eternal...

Last night I dreamt that my Mom gave me a tattoo - literally! Like she drew it on my arm with that tattoo thing-a-ma-jiggy, seriously! I was so happy coz right about now (and as long as I can remember) I had always wanted a tattoo but the only thing that had always stopped me from walking into that tattoo parlor are my parents (yeah yeah I'm such a goody-two-shoes pfftt!!)...so when I had that dream last night (during which I did not know it was a dream :D), I was sooo extremely happy and a tad bit curious coz it was my Mom that was inking my arm hehehe...

Anyways, I got this awesome looking tattoo of a dragon (in black) along my left forearm - awesome! It looked all artsy and fierce at the same time! I loved it! It was such a bummer when I woke up - no tattoo, no awesome dragon on my forearm, sobs...oh well, I take it this is a sign from the Dude above? Hehehe...that I should go ahead and get a tattoo (not necessarily a scary looking dragon along my forearm, though how awesome would that be huh??! :p) but just to get one (for now kekeke) because it's what I have always wanted! ;)

On a more serious note, the new year approaches. I know, I know, you're wondering how is the New Year's a serious thing??...I dunno, one way, yeah it's a party and all that - celebration of a new start, but on the other hand, it's a time for reflection...and I find myself looking back and looking ahead feeling all sort of confused, dazed, unsure, excited, scared, happy and sad all at the same time - damn...it drains a lot out of me...

Regrets, I have had a few but then again, what is life without the downs...I learn and I live. I have always wondered if there would be a day that I would wake up literally feeling like it is a whole brand new day where all starts from that one morning on...

Maybe it will be the morning of the 1st of January 2012. If it isn't, then by golly, I will make it that way myself ;)

xoxo

PS : Nope, that's not how the dragon tattoo looked like in my dream. That's just a random dragon sketch I got off the internet coz I was too lazy to sketch the dragon out of memory :p
PS2 : An actual real tattoo this weekend perhaps? Hmmm... ;)

Happy New Year World

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Wishes...


...sometimes wishes are all I have and wishing is all I can do...

Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love...
~Shakespeare~
~Hamlet Act 2 Scene 2~
x

Friday, December 2, 2011

And the Countdown Begins...


I had always thought that our bodies are vessels and then I read the above and smiled - it's nice to know that C.S.Lewis had the same thinking years ago ;)

"...For a moment there, I thought I was free...for a moment there, I thought I could breathe again...but then you walked in, and again I crumbled...such is my strength when it comes to you..."

December is here - the last month of the year. The month where we spend a lot on everything - spend a lot of time shopping (year end/Christmas sales!!), spend a lot of time partying (because face it, 'tis the season to be jolly ;p), spend a lot of time drinking & eating (cmon, you know this is true hahas), spend a lot of time with friends & family (because it's good to have good company around) and of course, we spend a lot of time contemplating the year that has passed and the year that is gonna be...

"...I'm still looking up at the stars and whispering your name into the wind hoping it will take it you..."

It's a magical time this month. You can just feel it if you let yourself be free from everything else. I'm looking back at 2010's December and trying to remember how I felt back then. Feelings tend to stay similar even if time has significantly passed. It's amazing how people 'work', isn't it?

I've been trying to fix my broken self. It's proving to be a most difficult task. Maybe I can't bring myself to throw away the broken parts of my life to make room for new ones to complete it. Saying is so much more easier than doing hahas...don't I know how true that is :p

Well, I have a month (okok it's just 29 days, happy? :p) before 2011 is officially over. I'm looking forward to see what will happen in these days that will eventually shape parts of my future in 2012 - people don't realize, that most of the times, it's tiny things that triggers the biggest changes...so eyes wide open people ;)

xoxo

PS : Perfection is a state of mind that isn't absolute nor a fact - it is what it is because we say it is...and that's why, to me, you are perfect...

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Random Thoughts XI


...chances are, the stars above are immensely beautiful because you are here with me...

Have you ever felt like you were invisible sometimes? That no matter how much you screamed no one seems to listen? Maybe the invisibility thing resonates bigger especially when there is a specific some one that you are trying to get the attention of...But there you go, that's life for ya...okay, okay enough random emo stuff for today :p I guess it's Sunday and everything always seems a little down on a Sunday evening...damn you Monday blues!!

And there they are,
Those diamonds in the rough,
That reflects in them dreams,
Dreams that stars only have...

And I can only wish,
To gaze upon them forever,
And to see me in view,
And to dream of stars with you...

xoxo

PS : Racing against time, hoping that it slows down and speeds up at the same time - does this mean I've lost my mind?

Friday, November 11, 2011

The Girl who Drew Her Eyes to Life...


...often times the eyes of a stranger can captivate the furthest recesses of your mind...

I remember one day when I was on the Metro in Tokyo. I was getting back from Asakusa if I'm not mistaken. And I noticed a girl sitting opposite of me. Now, at first nothing was out of the ordinary. I didn't notice her at first. At a glance she looked to be a young student listening to music, reading her book on her way to somewhere in the city. A normal scene on the trains of Tokyo. It was a long commute and halfway I noticed the girl put away her books and took out something from her bag - it was a compact. Slowly and meticulously she started to apply foundation onto her face. When that was done, she took out an eye liner. You see, the trains along the Tokyo Metro tracks move really fast but some how, in her world, everything slowed down. Well, that's what I thought because she applied the eye liner with ease as if she was sitting in front of a mirror in the comfort of her room. I can distinctly remember the color she put on - it was brown. And I can distinctly remember each stroke she made along the lids of her eyes. They brought out the shape of her eyes and she looked different and yet the same.

I do not know why this memory stuck. And so vividly at that. If I close my eyes, it's as if I am there once again - on the red line of the Tokyo Metro, in the late morning. Only specks of people in the car that I was in and that girl that sat opposite me - the girl who drew her eyes to life...

xoxo

Sunday, November 6, 2011

For fun...

...slightly adrift, my mind wanders towards the horizon afar...my eyes look but my heart sees...

x

Something's Different...


...maybe moving on and letting go will not be so hard after all. Waiting for spring, gives me hope...

Something's shifted - the wind, the air...it feels and tastes different. And mornings seem brighter than I remember them to be, even though outside the rain clouds crowd over the azure sky. A new hope floats within me and it's a new (but familiar) feeling that I am welcoming. I can't place my finger on what has changed. But it is not in my place to question something that is bringing warmth and some peace to my heart. Of course I would do best not to be too carried away with these feelings - these wind of changes are just as unpredictable as how my heart beats each second. I do not regret the past. They help me build who I am...I am excited of the future though. I do not know what is in store but mystery is what keeps me alive, excited...

xoxo

PS : Is it possible to miss someone you don't know?...

Friday, November 4, 2011

Random Thoughts X


...Jellyfish and Shooting Stars...

"Whenever I find a jellyfish or see a shooting star,
Your name floats into my mind...
No matter how imperfect you are,
I still like you so much...

I wonder if you can call this love?
Whenever I try to forget you, I end up loving you even more...
Is my wish to be together,
really unattainable?"
~Ai~

x

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Monday, October 31, 2011

Konichiwa V


New place, new friends...lots of good memories...in a land far off from home (okay so not that far away :p), I found a little piece of comfort with the country and people that opened their doors and heart to me...



Japan, I'm coming back...

xoxo

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Konichiwa IV

In Japan, the land of the rising sun, where wind blows during the autumn fell, to rush the eager chill...where the beauty of ancient traditions balances with that of the new world order...

I am here, in that land, bearing the autumn chill and admiring its hidden beauties...


xoxo

Friday, October 21, 2011

Konichiwa III


I found out my cellphone is outdated in Japan. Damn. I thought I had a cool Blackberry. WRONG. My BB is only a 2.5G phone (wtf kind of setting is that to sell a BB??) And so it does not work here in Japan coz you need a full 3G phone for the 3G sim card I own to work with the telcos here -____-" So now I'm walking around with a cellphone that does not work (the calling part). I could rent a 3G phone here or get a simcard here or something like that but I just refuse. (a) Coz renting will be expensive and you'll never know what sort of disgusting ppl could have used the phone before - yuckkss! (b) I'm just lazy....hahaha!! :p

It's just after lunch (I had Boiled Salmon & Salmon Roe on Rice) and I'm sitting in my designated meeting room waiting for my last piece of work transition to be done. It will start in about 15min. I'm feeling a little bit (ok a lot!) sleepy. I smell of food and it always makes me uncomfortable. These are not good states to be in when working. I just feel like packing up and going to my hotel to have a looooooooong nap. But...sigh...

Tomorrow I have to travel towards Ropponggi where I booked a cheaper hotel to stay in for my week extra in Tokyo. I've got 2 luggage to carry into the city and I'm dreading that part. But this is how it is when you budget travel. Cabs here cost a bomb and then some more. So unless I strike the lottery in the next hour, I'm gonna be taking either the train or the bus into the city...

Oh well, work's starting soon. I gotta pop into the loo (wheee! automated lights and heated seats!) to slap myself awake and to try to air myself out a little so that I don't smell like a Japanese dish...

xoxo

PS : At least I could take pictures on my BB and blue-tooth them to my computer. Hence the above picture.
PS2 : *yawn* wtf.......

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Konichiwa II


...I wonder sometimes, am I well up in my head?...the things that I do sometimes does not make any sense. Seriously @_@ ...

Last night, I nearly froze my fingers off. Seriously! Ok ok so maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit (pffft!) but it was really really cold walking back to my hotel from the office and smart me did not bring along a jacket.

The wind is getting stronger by the day. I can almost feel like if I just ran and jumped, the wind would surely pick me up flying (true story!!). This morning while walking to work, the wind was so strong that my eyes started to water from the cold sting and my jacket collar flapped so hard it sounded like I had birds tied on to my shoulders. Seriously.

I've never seen so many people on the streets before. There are more pedestrians on the road than there are cars in Japan. So unlike the situation in Malaysia. It's like clockwork here. It's sort of interesting to watch hehehe (yeah I'm weird like that).
Have I also mentioned how much the automatic lights and the heated toilet seats in the office excites me? It's like I'm a little kid! I walk to the toilet and the lights automatically turns itself on (motion detector) and I pretend like I'm some sort of super human that has super powers hehehes. Then whenever I sit on the toilet I smile coz its all warm and nice. It's weird how little it takes to make me excited. Guess I'm cheap hahas :p

The day is almost ending (for Japan Skye that is kekeke :p). It's starting to get dark outside even though its only like 5PM. The wonders of nature. Today I remembered to bring my jacket along so that I won't freeze to death (so drama kan?). I'm trying to think what to have for dinner and nothing comes to mind - go figure -___-" Hazards of having too many choices. Damnit.

xoxo

PS : I'm back at my hotel and I did not freeze to death. Victory ;)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Konichiwa I



Today i had Japanese curry for lunch. It was somewhat curry-ish I guess. Of course nothing like the curry back home in Malaysia. It was nice - a little sweet and very peppery with very tiny bits and shreds of pork about. I enjoyed I guess.

I wanted to bring my camera along to the cafeteria today but thought it over and decided it was best that I did not display such unlikely (can't find a better word to describe it hahas) behaviour whilst I was here on business. The Japanese have a very tight and precise way of viewing the working professional world but somehow I think that this wall that they have is coming down. People are friendly and nice and funny - even the 2nd line manager whom I had my lunch with.

The weather is getting colder by the day and I'm starting to think that I did not bring enough warm clothes. At this rate, by the time next week, the temperature would probably have dropped to around 12-14 degrees. Oh well, I guess I have to rough it. My fault that I started packing last minute.

Okies, back to work...need to go get a cuppa to jump start the afternoon...will try to blog more when ever I get the chance...and yes more pics as well :p

xoxo

PS : I'm so damn sleepy all the time in office...wtf...
PS2 : Since I was too cowardly to take pics with my camera...I had to draw out the pork curry rice meal I had -______-"

**update - damnit, OJT started. Can't get my kohee. Need to wait till later...le sigh...

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Free Tickets to Japan - Say what?!!?

Article : Yahoo News

...sometimes in life, there are unexpected surprises and coincidences that are inexplicable but certainly enjoyable...

Well, whadya know...free round-trip tickets to Japan and the catch is only to publicize the trip on blogs or social media sites :D

It's gonna start somewhere in April 2012. The Japan Tourism Agency will set up a website where anyone can go to sign up for this promotion but of course, applicants will need to submit together their itinerary and plans (what to do, where to go etc...) and also what they hope to gain and achieve through the trip. Of course, what is sponsored is only the air tickets, the rest will need to be borne by yourself. Even so, this is a very tempting offer indeed!

Hmmm...maybe another trip for me to Japan during Spring next year? :p I hope the agency would not disqualify my application based on the fact that I would already had been to Japan hahas :p

I would really love to see the Sakura blossoms...and I'm a really good writer (chehwah <---- self-praise kekeke :p) So, it's a win win for all! Hehehe...

Here's to hoping ;)

xoxo

PS : I have yet to pack nor actually begin anything remotely related to my 2 week trip to Japan. When will I learn? =\
PS2 : ... ... . .... ...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

For you...


...yes...I say sorry because I don't wanna be in a fight with you...because I love you more than anything...

I know it's never easy to surrender. Humans have this 'superiority complex' that makes it hard to walk away from a fight. But I live with a principle that I strive not to break - no regrets. And for that, I'd throw in the towel. Not because I'm weak but because I'm strong enough to fight for my relationship, for the ones I love and care about...

That means more to me than words can say...

So, which one are you? Would you rather stand your ground to win an argument with someone you care about or would you be willing to let it go?

xoxo

PS : Thanks Karen for posting this up in FB. I needed to hear that...
PS2 : Accommodations in Tokyo are friggin' expensive! Damn....

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Isabel Marant SS12 *heart*


Isabel Marant's Spring/Summer collection for 2012 at Saint Germain was not only edgy and fresh but in a way classic and timeless....I *heart* the collection. It was inspirational (I am even more determined and convinced now than I ever was...) Here are some snippets from the runway show I stumbled upon on fashiontoast....

c'est magnifique!

xoxo

PS : I don't know what it is that makes me the meaningless noise in your life...