Thursday, June 18, 2009

Letter To A Friend...


Dear Friend,

Hope my silly words did not hurt your heart. I have these tendencies to hurt the ones that I care about. Unintentionally ofcourse, but some might say subconsciously, I'm doing it on purpose. Maybe I'm too afraid of being close to anyone. The moment I do, I push them away. Self-preservation? A coward, trying to avoid any hurt or pain...

My heart is too fragile...If it ever gets broken again, I'm afraid I won't be able to find back the pieces to put it back together. I'm afraid that I won't be whole...a broken down soul...empty in its loneliness...

But this does not justify my words to you...I wish I could take them back...but time does not turn...So I hope that you understand that I could not have wanted this upon you. Nothing brings me more joy than to see you smile and...nothing saddens me quite as much as being the reason for the tears down the side of your face...

Love,

Silly ol' Me...

PS : I'm still trying to figure out who I am...