Friday, December 30, 2011

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (in my dreams :p)


...there's always hope, if you believe - hope floats eternal...

Last night I dreamt that my Mom gave me a tattoo - literally! Like she drew it on my arm with that tattoo thing-a-ma-jiggy, seriously! I was so happy coz right about now (and as long as I can remember) I had always wanted a tattoo but the only thing that had always stopped me from walking into that tattoo parlor are my parents (yeah yeah I'm such a goody-two-shoes pfftt!!)...so when I had that dream last night (during which I did not know it was a dream :D), I was sooo extremely happy and a tad bit curious coz it was my Mom that was inking my arm hehehe...

Anyways, I got this awesome looking tattoo of a dragon (in black) along my left forearm - awesome! It looked all artsy and fierce at the same time! I loved it! It was such a bummer when I woke up - no tattoo, no awesome dragon on my forearm, sobs...oh well, I take it this is a sign from the Dude above? Hehehe...that I should go ahead and get a tattoo (not necessarily a scary looking dragon along my forearm, though how awesome would that be huh??! :p) but just to get one (for now kekeke) because it's what I have always wanted! ;)

On a more serious note, the new year approaches. I know, I know, you're wondering how is the New Year's a serious thing??...I dunno, one way, yeah it's a party and all that - celebration of a new start, but on the other hand, it's a time for reflection...and I find myself looking back and looking ahead feeling all sort of confused, dazed, unsure, excited, scared, happy and sad all at the same time - damn...it drains a lot out of me...

Regrets, I have had a few but then again, what is life without the downs...I learn and I live. I have always wondered if there would be a day that I would wake up literally feeling like it is a whole brand new day where all starts from that one morning on...

Maybe it will be the morning of the 1st of January 2012. If it isn't, then by golly, I will make it that way myself ;)

xoxo

PS : Nope, that's not how the dragon tattoo looked like in my dream. That's just a random dragon sketch I got off the internet coz I was too lazy to sketch the dragon out of memory :p
PS2 : An actual real tattoo this weekend perhaps? Hmmm... ;)

Happy New Year World

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Wishes...


...sometimes wishes are all I have and wishing is all I can do...

Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love...
~Shakespeare~
~Hamlet Act 2 Scene 2~
x

Friday, December 2, 2011

And the Countdown Begins...


I had always thought that our bodies are vessels and then I read the above and smiled - it's nice to know that C.S.Lewis had the same thinking years ago ;)

"...For a moment there, I thought I was free...for a moment there, I thought I could breathe again...but then you walked in, and again I crumbled...such is my strength when it comes to you..."

December is here - the last month of the year. The month where we spend a lot on everything - spend a lot of time shopping (year end/Christmas sales!!), spend a lot of time partying (because face it, 'tis the season to be jolly ;p), spend a lot of time drinking & eating (cmon, you know this is true hahas), spend a lot of time with friends & family (because it's good to have good company around) and of course, we spend a lot of time contemplating the year that has passed and the year that is gonna be...

"...I'm still looking up at the stars and whispering your name into the wind hoping it will take it you..."

It's a magical time this month. You can just feel it if you let yourself be free from everything else. I'm looking back at 2010's December and trying to remember how I felt back then. Feelings tend to stay similar even if time has significantly passed. It's amazing how people 'work', isn't it?

I've been trying to fix my broken self. It's proving to be a most difficult task. Maybe I can't bring myself to throw away the broken parts of my life to make room for new ones to complete it. Saying is so much more easier than doing hahas...don't I know how true that is :p

Well, I have a month (okok it's just 29 days, happy? :p) before 2011 is officially over. I'm looking forward to see what will happen in these days that will eventually shape parts of my future in 2012 - people don't realize, that most of the times, it's tiny things that triggers the biggest changes...so eyes wide open people ;)

xoxo

PS : Perfection is a state of mind that isn't absolute nor a fact - it is what it is because we say it is...and that's why, to me, you are perfect...