Friday, April 27, 2012

Even Then...

..."When in the end you can't look yourself in the mirror because you wished you had done things differently in the past, it's when you realize that regrets too late in life is a mistake you cannot undo"...that's why I always do whatever I can now even when at times it breaks my heart...

I had a weird dream. Still can't decide it it's weird-good or if it was was a short dream. Happened some where in the very early morning hours...yeah, I could tell. I don't know why I remembered that =\

Anyways the dream...let's see, started out with me somewhere in some foreign city. It just seemed foreign..But don't knowexactly where...and I was rushing to get back (i think - it's all so blurry now...)...then I got a phone call saying that I needed to go to Scotland for a business trip - SCOTLAND!

Look! Look! It's Nessie!! XD
After the call it was sort of another big blurr - you know, scenes shifted, conversations mumbled...and all of   sudden I was in a rooftop office...waittt...penthouse office, yes that's right...penthouse office getting all necessary travel approval ready because my flight is in 12 hours!! And I was pacing around the office, anxious, coz, well, you know, I really really wanted to go to Scotland and I have only 12 hours to get  everything ready!! And here's the weird-best part (I decided it's weird - good :p), my company secretary, she was - Rosie Huntington-Whitley yeah! I know right???

Ok so that's basically it. Miss Huntington-Whitley a secretary was the weird part of the dream. Don't ask me why I thought that was weird. It was just is. Isn't it? Cmon, you guys agree dontcha? Weird.


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Missing Somethings...

I've been hearing lots about Japan lately. And Everytime I do, I get this impulse to hop on the next plane over there. I cannot believe how much I miss it. I'm missing out on all the sakura showers that's happening at the moment. 

Yoyogi Park looks amazing (AMAZING!) this time around compared to when I was there last fall. And to know that Garance was in Tokyo , probably (definitely!) walked the same paths that I had is just ARRGGHH...wish I was back there...hope to make another trip over to Japan soon ;) 

..I give my heart out like throwing leaves into the wind. I hope one day you will catch it...

I'm having trouble trying to see things as they are. No, no, it's more of I'm having trouble accepting things as they are. I see them clear as day but I refuse to believe it. When you want something so badly, everything else gets thrown out the window...

Is there ever a night that goes by without the thoughts of you? 
Will I ever look up at the stars and see them as they are? 
Your name forever etched... 
Your smile forever remembered... 


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Peppery Weirdness...

It's funny how pepper on it's own tastes icky, but when added to a dish, it enhances the it's not a very profound thing to be contemplating about. But I'm looking at my pepper and I'm thinking about that. It's just weird. Coz I'm thinking, how did it come about to people back then to think about adding pepper to food. 

I mean they would have tasted it on it's own first right? They'd be all like,"Blerghh! What is this awful stuff??" and the next thing you know, "I think I should grind this into icky brown crumbles and add them to my meat!" I mean how..? Why...? see what I'm talking about? Over thinking about's just pepper. I should just let it enhance my food's flavors, thank it, and be done with it....

I can't believe that I'm actually writing a post about how weird pepper is and then stating about how weird it's weirdness is...ok starting to not make sense (yeah I do that a lot)...need to stop before I make a fool of myself....oh wait, too late...


Thursday, April 19, 2012

1+1 = 100

I find that picture of a little snow white absolutely adorable. I can't wait for Snow White and The Huntsman to come out. The movie looks to be epic with it's stellar cast and all. But mostly it's one of my childhood stories that I grew up with - all magical and romantic and funny and fun ;)

1+1=100 - yeahhhh, that's how it is in my world. If only my bank account works the same way as my brains :p I give way too much indulgence to my imaginations. Gets me into tonnes of trouble. True story. *What am I talking about???* 

...everything i could never tell you 
in this letter kept 
in words wept by heart 
in tales told by soul... 

I can't recall the last time I had a good night's sleep. My sleep has always been bombarded by dreams - every single night! Without fail. I'm not lying. This is serious shit. Ofcourse they are not all bad :p But still...point is, I think I need a good, long, dreamless deep sleep just to sort of clear out the cache in my head so that I can stop overthinking...


PS : I guess it doesn't make a difference does it? I'm leaving and you don't care. Heck, you don't even remember when I'm around...
PS2 : Gonna go home and PSP now :p

Wednesday, April 18, 2012


...oh why do we insist on believing a lie? Why do we chose stupidity? Why is it so hard to stop these tears from falling?...

Giving everything you have leaves you with nothing. But we do it anyways. Why? Don't know. Sometimes you give everything and get nothing in return and you wake up the next morning and do the same thing over again..and's a ruthless cycle and its the most blissful thing at the same time. It's a contradiction that only makes sense to those who has gone through it or whom is going through it. Things happen with no apparent valid reasons at times. And the more you try to make sense of it, the more it confuses you and so you realize that some things are better left unquestioned. And you leave things to be as they are - mysteries of life. And through time, it becomes a part of you, a part of who you are and soon it's indistinguishable as it has taken root deep inside you.

Tell me, am I making any sense? Question is, when it doesn't make sense, should you not stop it? Instead of letting it fester into something that pulsates pain?

I'm such an idiot aren't I?


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Push for Drama

This is just what I need right now - a totally out of the blue over the top dramatic distraction ;)


Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Lies People Say...

...and no matter what they say, you know they don't really mean it because their words are hollowed by the lies they say...

Finally realizing how stupid you are for adamantly holding on to and believing in people that carefully take their time to break your heart...and kicking yourself for hoping on pure blind faith that maybe, just maybe, they might turn around...but knowing deep down that they will never see you for anything more than dust in the wind...

I must be truly insane :)


PS : Is it too late for April Fool's? Hahas :p