Shadow Puppets

Woof!

...I'm always too weak to let go...

It's been soooo long since the last time I made shadow puppets! I could not resist it hence the  picture of my favorite shadow puppet - doggie!! It reminds me of my dog Ponnie - I always miss her...strange how little things like shadow puppet can help you get through a day...

Here's to a better tomorrow with more simple gestures to help me through ;)

xoxo

PS : Justin Bieber's Baby just started to play on the radio *vomit* now it's gonna get stuck in my head - need another song to get it out of my head!!!

Utterly Lost...

At Cannes...

...sometimes everything feels so utterly lost and I don't know to feel devastated or plain nonchalant...

You make me wanna catch the rain for you...

And I'd never thought that I could lose myself so much;

But when it comes to you there's no doubt,

That I would gift the moon to you...

x

PS : If only you could see how much it breaks my heart to lose a friend...

Tea-Coffee-Vodka

stumbled upon this and it cracked me up!

...I wish I never have to grow up. I wish I was in Neverland...

Things will never be the same again. How so? When people decide they don't give a damn to those that gives a damn. I think my headache is making me spew out nonsensical emo-drama-shit. But who's to say it's not true eh?

I've run out my supply of vodka (not really :p) at home so maybe tonite I'll stick with a nice cuppa joe :p I should eat something for dinner but I can't decide what. Actually, I miss the Katsu (Japanese fried meat dish) that I had in Japan and would really like to have that now but alas I'm not in Japan nor am I going to Japan anytime soon. Maybe hopefully somewhere during fall this year but nowhere near now. Yes, I wish I was going now but wishes are overrated. Don't get me wrong, they can come true, this I can swear to you. I've made wishes that came true. Not so much in the exact way I wished it but it came true somehow. Hard to put in words but basically, if you wished hard enough and if you stick to your dreams, eventually they will come true. Patience is they key. And hope - keeping one's hope alive is never an easy task, but if you stick to it then it will pay off. This I promise you...

Okay gotta go now. Headache is becoming more painful and a stuffy office at night is not a conducive environment to be in. 

xoxo

PS : The more I try to forget, the more I try to let go the more I feel like the world is not right. What is wrong with me???

No Heed...

No pain matches that of a lonely howl,
Like the wolf in a desert scowl,
How he longs for the moon in distant skies,
How he pines and how he cries...


And yet the moon but stares,
Through starry heavens she gives no care,
And just passes magnificently by,
Not heeding the wolf's cry...

...there comes a time when you need to learn that what you see is what you get and that wishes don't come true and that some things change leaving you longing for once upon a time...

aaaaa-uuuuuuuu!!!....okay so that was my attempt to howl hahas :p The moon outside is so beautiful tonight. Sometimes it's sad to think that I will not be able to live long enough to appreciate these beauties up close. Maybe staring at it is appreciation enough. God has made it so you cannot have the cake and eat it too...why God?? Meanie! :p okay I take that back, I'm sorry - please don't send me to hell....................

Sometimes I wish I was ignorant. Ignorant to what goes around me, ignorant to what people say and ignorant to how people are. Because that saying, "Ignorance is bliss", it really seems like a blessing. To know is to understand and to understand is to feel and feelings people, they are a....well, they are not always a welcomed friend. Aaaah the thorns of life :p

xoxo


PS : Time to leave the office and head home and think about why....
PS2 : ..... .... ..... story of my life :p

Even Then...

..."When in the end you can't look yourself in the mirror because you wished you had done things differently in the past, it's when you realize that regrets too late in life is a mistake you cannot undo"...that's why I always do whatever I can now even when at times it breaks my heart...

I had a weird dream. Still can't decide it it's weird-good or if it was weird-bad...hmmm...it was a short dream. Happened some where in the very early morning hours...yeah, I could tell. I don't know why I remembered that =\

Anyways the dream...let's see, started out with me somewhere in some foreign city. It just seemed foreign..But don't knowexactly where...and I was rushing to get back (i think - it's all so blurry now...)...then I got a phone call saying that I needed to go to Scotland for a business trip - SCOTLAND!

Look! Look! It's Nessie!! XD

After the call it was sort of another big blurr - you know, scenes shifted, conversations mumbled...and all of   sudden I was in a rooftop office...waittt...penthouse office, yes that's right...penthouse office getting all necessary travel approval ready because my flight is in 12 hours!! And I was pacing around the office, anxious, coz, well, you know, I really really wanted to go to Scotland and I have only 12 hours to get  everything ready!! And here's the weird-best part (I decided it's weird - good :p), my company secretary, she was - Rosie Huntington-Whitley yeah! I know right???

Ok so that's basically it. Miss Huntington-Whitley a secretary was the weird part of the dream. Don't ask me why I thought that was weird. It was just is. Isn't it? Cmon, you guys agree dontcha? Weird.

xoxo

Missing Somethings...

I've been hearing lots about Japan lately. And Everytime I do, I get this impulse to hop on the next plane over there. I cannot believe how much I miss it. I'm missing out on all the sakura showers that's happening at the moment. 

Yoyogi Park looks amazing (AMAZING!) this time around compared to when I was there last fall. And to know that Garance was in Tokyo , probably (definitely!) walked the same paths that I had is just ARRGGHH...wish I was back there...hope to make another trip over to Japan soon ;) 

..I give my heart out like throwing leaves into the wind. I hope one day you will catch it...

I'm having trouble trying to see things as they are. No, no, it's more of I'm having trouble accepting things as they are. I see them clear as day but I refuse to believe it. When you want something so badly, everything else gets thrown out the window...

Is there ever a night that goes by without the thoughts of you? 

Will I ever look up at the stars and see them as they are? 

Your name forever etched... 

Your smile forever remembered... 

 xoxo

Peppery Weirdness...

wood-pepper-mill

It's funny how pepper on it's own tastes icky, but when added to a dish, it enhances the flavor...so it's not a very profound thing to be contemplating about. But I'm looking at my pepper and I'm thinking about that. It's just weird. Coz I'm thinking, how did it come about to people back then to think about adding pepper to food. 

I mean they would have tasted it on it's own first right? They'd be all like,"Blerghh! What is this awful stuff??" and the next thing you know, "I think I should grind this into icky brown crumbles and add them to my meat!" I mean how..? Why...? Ahhhh...pepper....you see what I'm talking about? Over thinking about stuff...it's just pepper. I should just let it enhance my food's flavors, thank it, and be done with it....

I can't believe that I'm actually writing a post about how weird pepper is and then stating about how weird it's weirdness is...ok starting to not make sense (yeah I do that a lot)...need to stop before I make a fool of myself....oh wait, too late...

xoxo