Thursday, April 28, 2011

Sigh...


...that's life...you hurt for most of the times just to feel bliss for a brief moment...

...and it's worth every moment...

x

Monday, April 25, 2011

Yumsies! :)


...surprises are best served unexpectedly...

A nice surprise at the start of the week :)

Ohh and did I mention it's real yummy too? Yummeh!! XD

xoxo

I'll Do My Crying in the Rain...

Photo: Olimpia Zagnoli

...tears are shed for no one but me...but if you want to know, I'd probably let you know...

I recently read a post on the New York Times - it's a sort of an observation by Melissa Febos (author of 'Whip Smart' and a teacher at Sarah Lawrence and NYU) of the people in New York - specifically New Yorkers that wear their hearts on their sleeves.

How often do we get to see strangers crying in public?...In a huge city like New York, you would bound to bump into one or two criers along the way...

If you asked, me, even though PJ or KL isn't that big of a city as compared to NY, I don't think I had ever bumped into anybody that was crying...it could be because of where I am. As in, living in Asia, where the culture is basically to hide your emotions within yourself, it's not gonna be easy to just spot someone bawling in public...haha :p

Well the point is, as from what I can discern, is...how can I put it - what makes a person cry in front of the whole world? Okay, not the whole world per say - but you know what I mean...why would do so? Crying is such an intimate emotion and like what Melissa Febos was saying - often or not, most of us find it hard just to even cry in front of the people closest to us, family even. So how is it any easier to shed tears in a city full of strangers?

Maybe that's just it you know - they are after all strangers. Sometimes we cry just because at that moment that's all that we could ask ourselves of. We don't expect anything and sometimes we don't really want to answer anybody's questions...it is ironically much more private to be crying in public hehe...

I'm trying to think back if I had cried in public before...can't really recall at the moment probably because I haven't done so...I have to admit I am not someone that shows off my emotions very obviously. I guess it comes from how I grew up (that's a story for another day hehe :p)...

Oh well, if ever I end up crying in public, I will let you know and if you ever bump into me doing so - ask or not ask me about it, either way I don't think that would not matter much because if I was crying in public, it would mean that at that moment I have not a single care in the world other that the fact that I just want to cry...

xoxo

PS : Hmmm...do I want a countdown...?
PS2 : I actually moved like about close to 100 boxes today...I'm
actually quite strong...damn Skye :p
PS3 : Not a word on PS2...let me be larrr hahas :p

Saturday, April 23, 2011

#@$^^&$*&%!@#


I've not been able to write much these days...I dunno why...my mind kinduh feels like it's been hit by a confundus charm (or so i can only imagine that this is how being hit by a confundus charm feels like...)

I feel like saying yes but I'm saying no and vice versa...I'm always at loggerheads - between what's in my heart and what's in my mind...i constantly feel like screaming but what's the point in screaming when you can't scream out the thing that you really want to scream out?

AAARRRGGGGHHH!!!!!

PS : Looking forward to next month :) I shouldn't say much more...just that I'm excited :p
PS2 : ... ... . .... ... .. ....

Monday, April 18, 2011

All I need is your smile...


What a difference a day makes...

I find them adorable,
And I'd love to see them often,
Because it means that you're smiling,
And your smile, it's heaven...

x

Random Thoughts V


I carry hope, eternal within me, because I believe...

I sit,
I cry,
And then I wipe away the tears,
Wear a smile,
And hope to find my heart soon...

xoxo

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Gran Torino


Clint Eastwood knows how to make a movie...

There is nothing much I can say about Gran Torino but it is an incredible story with a bitter sweet ending...but I guess any other ending wouldn't have made this movie what it is...I cried at the end...

Can't believe it took me this long to have watched this movie...

xoxo

PS : Jamie Cullum sang the theme song wonderfully...
PS2 : If you watched the movie till the end, you can hear Clint
singing the 1st verse of the song...

Friday, April 15, 2011

Why...

Why do I hold my heart? Why don't I let go?...

I wish I could runaway,
Far away where no light could catch me,
Where the air is thin,
And I could sprawl on the ground broken...

I wish I could runaway,
To where I can scream my heart out,
That I could cry till the end of time,
And there is no need to answer why...

I wish I could runaway,
Jump out from my skin,
Fly out to the skies,
Just to forget about the pain...

x

Why is it so hard for it to be true?

Monday, April 11, 2011

That One Single Thing...


...because love knows no boundaries - no conditions. It exists because it does and it expects nothing in return...

How do you stop a train wreck from happening? Or...how do you escape a train destined for wreckage?

1. Emergency Stop? - does not exist...
2. Jump out? - what's the difference then?...
3. Embrace what's to come? - close my eyes and pray hard that i will somehow walk out of it alive...

In other words - survive.

Hmmm...the world is a tough place to live in. Never a straight road, never a constant sunny day...twist and turns and knives in your back, being chased and chasing after, soaring high only to tumble down...pain and hurt are always near and you're never a stranger to teardrops running down the side of your face...it seems surviving is the only thing you can do isn't it? Hahas...irony of life :p

But all it takes to render all the above irrelevant is just one single thing...and it need not make sense to the whole world save for only you...that one thing can turn everything around ;)

So, what's your one single thing?

xoxo

PS : My one single thing is driving me crazy...crazy good and crazy bad...but I'm focusing on the good (trying very very very hard to...it's very hard...)
PS2 : fo' shizzel ma' nizzel!!
PS3 : Okay...I don't know why I just said that....@__@

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Smells Like Yummm...

Today we talk about the joy that comes with drinking a cup of coffee...okay so this will only apply to coffee lovers haha...but I guess you non-coffee drinkers can have some insight as to why coffee affects us lovers the way it does...

Well actually I can't really point out why...I just know I do..I'm trying to think back to the 1st time I had my 1st taste of coffee It should be probably around junior high (i think...can't really remember...wat??? I have short term memory syndrome okays!! pffft! :p) I didn't have any sort of momentous moment when coffee first touched my lips or anything...it was a slow and steady affair...through time I fell in love...oh how I fell in love yo!! hehehe...

My kettle's still broken...okok I know I mentioned this 2 weeks ago. And that I was supposed to go and get me a new one but...sigh...just been busy with work and all that stuff (don't ask me what stuff, just stuff okay :p). But I still managed to have me a cup of coffee this afternoon :D ingenuity!! woohoo!! in other words - sheer desperation hahaha...I just gotta have me a cup of coffee!! :p

Right, sidetracked from what I was supposed to write...well simply put - the taste, the smell, the aroma and just the way it warmly flows through my body as I sip it in is just pure magic...

Coffee makes me feel good...yes, it's a temporary high. I get it. But it's nice to have a temporary high to rely on when you are feeling just a little bit down...

Now, where's my cuppa joe....there you are ;)

xoxo

PS : I need to learn to switch my brains off...

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Russian Dolls ;)

Smiles are meant to be silent. It gives us a chance to imagine ;)

Awww gosh!! Chanel Doll Bags are effin cute!! Though I would not carry them around (hmmm....I dunno, it's just not me :p) but I would still want one sitting on my shelf in my apartment ♥hearts♥

PS : When will I learn to forget?...

xoxo

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Inhale.Exhale.Repeat.


Everyday I pray,
For you to look my way,
But it will not be true,
I was not made for you...

It's April...and April Fool's day has come and gone and though I was not literally pranked or anything (muahahaha!!), it still feels as though the joke's on me...hahas...

Oh well, live and let live I say...there is nothing to do but just breathe...in...out....repeat...

xoxo