Anyone feel like swingin' with me?...

Is it possible to be a skeptic and a hopeless romantic at the same time? To hope and pray beyond any rhyme nor reason and at the same time doubting the everlasting strength of love?...

12.20am...it's a Monday and I am dreading the prospect of work which starts in 8 hours...our lives boiled down to the ins and outs of office duties (*cringe*) ...just watched a soccer match and waitin' for the next one to start...I got the golden oldies playin' in the background (Tom Jones - Last Waltz at the moment) and a good book by my side...finished my cuppa earlier on and seriously contemplating on makin' another one (dun worry, caffeine doesn't affect me anymore if anyone was wonderin' :p)...I love moments like this...it feels like I'm the only one awake in the world tonight (haha keep dreamin' Skye)...but I can't help the way I feel...it's just the way it is...now they're playin' a big band number and I feel like swingin' hehe...wish I was back in those good old days...you know with ol' blue eyes and the ratpack...sigh...wishes in abundance...

I think I will just get lost in my book and the songs of yesteryear...for a moment tonight, I am living in a different era...and maybe if I concentrate hard enough, I might just end up where I wished to be....

C'est la vie! =D

Feelin' Just a Little Emo....

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm

Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Will you be my only exception?...

xoxo i *heart* Paramore xoxo

Slightly on Edge...

I wish I could make the rain fall for you,

Just the way a tune floats off a piano,

I want to make you smile,

Even when there's no reason to...

Because you make me feel like no other,

Because days feel shorter and nights feel longer,

The absence of your gaze makes it harder,

Harder for me to breath even...

Let's just dance,

When the stars are out tonight,

When the moon shines only for us,

Promise me you will smile...

xoxo

One Night of Freedom!!

Who said rave parties are over-rated?? :p

Last Friday was da bomb! (i kno, i kno, nobody uses that phrase anymore...but me likes :p) was out the whole night - true story! Freedom 360 at KL Live was awesome!!!! I didn't even feel the time flying by *wtf*...

How can I sum it up in a single post?? I had wonderful company with me...we danced liked crazy to the tranz tunes of the DJ's spinning their stuff!! Of course DJ Terence C and DJ Ross were good and all BUT the main reason for the crazy that transcended that night was............ABOVE & BEYOND!!!!!! Wooooo!!!!!!!! Yeah baby!!!!

We could have gone all night! And we did actually kekeke....so the party didn't really kick off till about around close to midnite but when it did start it was of the roof!!! Can't remember the last time that I had this much fun dancing the night away! It was a good break and for a moment there, I got lost! I did not mind it one bit!!

Got to spend time with some old friends that I had not seen in a while as well as got to party on with new friends that put smiles on my face!! Damn, that was a great night!!!

Can't wait for the next rave installment. Freedom only happens yearly and I'm definitely gonna be there in the next one!...and in between if I happen to stumble upon more parties like this, rest assured that I'm gonna try my best to make it!!! Join me!!! You won't regret it!!!

*Nights never seems enough when the stars are out to play :D*

The World Cup - My Shoulder to Lean On...

Been feeling slightly confused and down in the dumps these pass week...emotions spiking from the very ecstatic to the very very down low, causing my head to spiral out of control at times (all the time :p) the best part is, I know exactly what is makin' me feel the way I am now, but...sigh...

The world cup is a good distraction though...now I stay up late in to the night and I have a somewhat reasonable reason haha..at least it's something that I'm willing to admit to hehehe...

Speaking of the world cup, it has been a rather non-exciting season this time...the lacking of goals scored is a downer!i mean soccer is all about the GOALS!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe...but on the other hand, the Asian teams have been doing exceptionally well so far...I'm keeping my fingers crossed for them...Korea managed a 2-0 win over Greece the other day and japan's win over Cameroon was momentous! N.Korea played stunningly well against the Brazilian giants..yes they lost, but c'mon, it's Brazil! Predictions were ranging from a 4-0 loss to 6-0. But in the end, it was a mere 2-1 win by Brazil. N.Korea's long return to the world cup scene and they still managed to steal a goal from the world no.1 ranked team!you gotta admit that it was impressive! :D

So yes, I'm leaning on the shoulders of the world cup at the moment to steer away the turmoil inside of me...I'm just afraid that when the soccer season is over, and I am still left here feelin' blue...who do I turn to for a shoulder to cry on?

I know no other way...

'I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way.' - Pablo Neruda

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I am doing my best to forget...

Though the simplest of things I see of you are everywhere...

Even the songs I hear brings me to you...

How do I void myself from the likes of you?

This I did not ask for...

This I did not even imagine could happen...

But here I am broken from falling...

Falling hopelessly for you...

When such happens without rhyme nor reason,

Who do I turn to for answers?

Maybe only time can heal what the divine had created,

Maybe I wont even heal at all...

For what is written cannot be undone,

Then, I am despaired to walk without my heart,

As I had lost it all to you...

And I'm afraid that I will forever be unfound...

My name is...

So I stumbled upon Chris Cornell's video for You Know My Name - theme song for James Bond's Casino Royale...can't help but falling back into my fantasies. Hey hey it's not what you think (well maybe it is...)...

I had always been different with my childhood daydreams growing up as compared to the other girls that I have known...most girls dream of being princesses and falling madly in love with handsome foreign princes, planning their wedding in their heads and imagining the dress that they will be wearing walking down the aisle..Sigh, unfortunately (fortunately!) for me, I did not have those sort of thoughts hahas...well, mine was more, erm...how should i put it - epic, spectacular and totally out of this world! :D

One fantasy that stands out (as I do have them still from time to time - so paiseh *blush*) is that of me doing what James Bond does!! Damn, I guess the child in me will never die :)

Is it bad though? I wanna be a spy!! Yes, I think its real cool..Yes, I'm a total geek/nerd - loony bird =\ License to kill, exotic lands, cool gadgets and cars and of course the endless lines of beautiful ppl :D aahhhhh...the wondrous pleasures of fantasies...

I guess there is no harm in indulging oneself in a little bit fantasies from time to time...it's healthy really - stress at work, beat the crap out of someone!! hehehe...inside your head mind you...i'm not one to promote violence. But then again I want to be Agent 007...wait, I kill only bad guys!! - Justified!! :D

Well, deep down, i'm hoping to be recruited by some sort of secret organization/agency to go off galavanting and saving the world from evil dudes amped on taking over the world...when that day comes, well, you guys wouldn't know of it, coz if you did, then I would have no choice but to kill you ;)

PS : I have yet to come up with a cool spyish name and a theme song to boot...it shall be in my to-do list for the week kekeke :p

PPS : I think Casino Royale is the best Bond movie thus far and Daniel Craig makes an awesome and ruggedly handsome spy!*heart*

PPPS : The theme song for Casino Royale above is majorly awesome as well!! V^^

PPPPS : BANG!!!!!!!!!!! *me shooting into the screen and then holding up the gun in a very yeng-spyish way*

Okay Skye needs to wake up from her daydreams and get back to her work........... -_____-

The English Patient

I watched the English Patient tonight. I remembered what I loved about it. Mainly that love doesn't knock. And even though you try your very hardest to look away, you cannot deny what is inevitably written...

I smiled, I laughed but mostly I cried...watching, I can understand why it won Best Picture. I have yet to read the book that this movie was adapted from. I will in due time...

I close my eyes and I can still hear the piano score playing in the background. The sentimental romantic in me...

"We die, we die rich with lovers and tribes, tastes we have swallowed, bodies we have entered and swum up like rivers, fears we have hidden in, like this wretched cave. We are the real countries, not the boundaries drawn on maps with the names of powerful men. I know you will come and carry me out in to the Palace of Winds. That's all I've wanted-to walk in such a place with you, with friends on earth without maps..."

"Betrayals during war are childlike compared with our betrayals during peace. New lovers are nervous and tender, but smash everything. For the heart is an organ of fire. For the heart is an organ of fire..."

Lady Gaga - Alejandro

Need I say more? Lady Gaga is just a breath of fresh air (which not all can inhale :p) but I love her nonetheless!

Just Another Day...

My heart does not feel like it is mine...

I look and it isn't there,

When I try to listen for the beatings,

I hear only your name...

I breath in and I breath out,

But it does not feel like living,

Stranded in a point in time,

I don't even know who I am anymore...

But one thing that is certain,

No one can deny what I'm feeling inside,

It's not made up nor is it just passing,

I stand, defeated to your love...

x

^%%##@$%(*&@!#!!

Sometimes I sit and I stare and I wonder...wonder about all the things that I wish I could be doing and sighing about all the things that I am actually doing...some days it just feels like life is so empty and I am just another soulless being droning on...

Damn, these feelings, the restlessness that is stirring up within me is like a black hole...I'm just falling, getting sucked in to darkness, no hand to reach out, no one and nothing to grab on to...

Maybe it's work, maybe it's the heart, I'm just a roller coaster of emotional mess...FML! seems like a pretty good statement to describe me at the moment...

I guess I need to focus more on things that are tangible (stop dreaming of the unattainable Skye!!)...but my heart has a heart of its own-true story....no matter how painful it can be, I seem to be drawn to the same thing...over and over again...and what do I gain? More heartache, more sighs in the night, unheard...

Okay la...I should stop being so emo *cue sad violin music* story of my life huh...I don't know how many times I sighed writing this post...*sigh*...there I go again...

I just wanna break free...be crazy...crash & burn and do it all over again...

PS : Maybe it's just coz of you...

Just a thought...

I am running...

Into raging winds,

Clenching fists till bleeding,

Looking, searching for a lost something...

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