Idiot.

...oh why do we insist on believing a lie? Why do we chose stupidity? Why is it so hard to stop these tears from falling?...

Giving everything you have leaves you with nothing. But we do it anyways. Why? Don't know. Sometimes you give everything and get nothing in return and you wake up the next morning and do the same thing over again..and again..it's a ruthless cycle and its the most blissful thing at the same time. It's a contradiction that only makes sense to those who has gone through it or whom is going through it. Things happen with no apparent valid reasons at times. And the more you try to make sense of it, the more it confuses you and so you realize that some things are better left unquestioned. And you leave things to be as they are - mysteries of life. And through time, it becomes a part of you, a part of who you are and soon it's indistinguishable as it has taken root deep inside you.

Tell me, am I making any sense? Question is, when it doesn't make sense, should you not stop it? Instead of letting it fester into something that pulsates pain?

I'm such an idiot aren't I?

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