Only For You...

Tell me your wish and I'll wish it for you,

Even when time stops I'll wish it for you,

And when it seems as though wishes would not come true,

I'll be by your side to make it true, only for you...

...of incredibly cute enamels ;)

I wuv Ickle & Lardee!....they're my fav milk teef at the moment...hopefully I hear a knock on my door soon...my place is open to any milk teef out there in need of a warm and cosy home...thanks Ickle & Lardee for makin' my day :D

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Are hearts meant to be broken?
Does the pain mean to break you down?
Or is it just a way to make you stronger?
Or is it just simply called life?

When do we stop ourselves from hurting?
Will we ever know that we are drowning?
Can lifes' lessons transform you into a better being?
Or are we too blind to realise what we are seeing?

Maybe we are too naive with what's going on?
Maybe we just want our hearts desire to hold strong?
Could it be we are just little kids inside?
Just wanna be loved enjoying the thrill of the ride?

In the end would we ever learn?
That sometimes we wont get what we thought we earn?
That life's just another journey that ain't fair?
And maybe we should all just not give a care...

Over Thinkin'

How does one let go? If it's something that has rooted it self in your heart and has grown with you through time. Can I just uproot it and toss it aside?

The pain inside sometimes compels me to do just that, but every time I do feel that way, something happens and I wait..again...

And the wait doesn't help either, it makes it worse even...it's not the duration of the wait, it's the unknown. I wait but what is it I'm waiting for?

The human heart confuses me...I wonder if we could all do without the turmoil of emotions...then you would ask, 'So, being a zombie would solve everything then?'

I don't know...half of the time I don't know what I want...maybe that's my problem...it's either I don't know what it is that I want or I want something that is near impossible...

Maybe I think too much...thinking too much is bad for you...you tend to get lost in your thoughts and then there will come a point where you can differentiate between what's made up and what's reality...you go crazy :P

Probably it's because I'm already a mental case...that would make sense of all the things that are going on in my head and all the feelings that I'm experiencing that is making my life quite...erm...how do I say this?...dysfunctional?? :P

You can see what's happening can't you?...I'm doing it again...thinking...way too much...I wish my brain has a switch which I can turn on and off, the thinkin' parts especially...ha...look at me...doin' it again...it's time for me to stop...well at least, for now... :P

Letter To A Friend...

Dear Friend,

Hope my silly words did not hurt your heart. I have these tendencies to hurt the ones that I care about. Unintentionally ofcourse, but some might say subconsciously, I'm doing it on purpose. Maybe I'm too afraid of being close to anyone. The moment I do, I push them away. Self-preservation? A coward, trying to avoid any hurt or pain...

My heart is too fragile...If it ever gets broken again, I'm afraid I won't be able to find back the pieces to put it back together. I'm afraid that I won't be whole...a broken down soul...empty in its loneliness...

But this does not justify my words to you...I wish I could take them back...but time does not turn...So I hope that you understand that I could not have wanted this upon you. Nothing brings me more joy than to see you smile and...nothing saddens me quite as much as being the reason for the tears down the side of your face...

Love,

Silly ol' Me...

PS : I'm still trying to figure out who I am...

You...

You're a vision of Eden...
If there were an Eden, then you would be Eve...
Words cannot begin to describe you,
And I do not want to limit you to mere words...
You leave me speechless...

Your gaze that falls on me,
No matter how small and how short time permits,
It feels like an eternity has come and gone,
But an eternity is too short of a time for one as forlorn as I,
Till the ends of time and existence I sigh to be with you...

But I writhe in pain,
For reality is a cruel friend to me,
To not be with the one you love...
Is a burden to great to bear by my already fragile heart,
Why is the universe conspiring against me?...

If i was given a choice,
To turn back time and re-gain my heart from you,
To undo the mess that is growing wild in my soul,
To be free of the bonds that is love,
Will i find it in me to forget you ever existed?...

Even if the Gods came down from the heavens,
To force you out of my conscienceness and rid you forever,
I will stand my ground and hold you dear,
Nothing in this time will erase you from my mind,
If I had to do it again, I will, again and again, till my dying days...

But for now I live in a hazy craze...
I wait for you in my rainy dreams...
With each breath that falls gently on this mortal realm,
I savor every inch of time that we are together apart,
Praying that maybe one day, our hearts might be one...

Decode me...somebody...

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