Sunday, January 31, 2010

Don't Leave...


*sigh*....my head aches as if there was a miner inside picking with his pick axe, slowly and steadily...my head hurts so bad that I can't even think straight...this should be a sign for me to go see a doctor. Any reasonable person would have done so...no not me...I have been having pains such as this for a very long time now...but....I never done anything about it save popping a couple of aspirins down my throat and hoping to God that it would stop the pain...

I close my eyes and the pain still remains...whatever I do I still feel the throbbing ache at the side of my head, just like clockwork...I wish I don't have to go through this pain all the time...I wish I could just close my eyes and go to sleep...I wish for so many things but it doesn't mean that I will get them all...

Tonight, I wish that you would remain a part of my life and that you would not disappear as how most of the things that I love have done...I sense you fading into a distant memory and my heart aches in echo of the emptiness that I might face once again...Don't leave...but if you do have to then bring me along with you. Let me be there by your side. Let me hold your hands and help you through the perils that life may throw at you...at the least, let me just have a tiny glimpse in to your life so that I might feel like I am a part of it...though looking from a far through a frosted window, it would be more than what I could have asked for...from you, a stranger that had affected my life in ways that I have yet to fathom myself...it is a weird world that we live in...and I would not change a single thing in it for it all led me to you...

PS : '...don't let me go...'

Friday, January 22, 2010

Stars...


There in the sky,
If you can just see,
I chose a star just for you...and me...
And I wait for it to light up,
Every night in the darkest of hours,
I gaze upon your star and I sigh a smile,
Do you see it?
The brightest one among the rest,
And the only one in my heart...

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Stray Thoughts...


sometimes we feel so uncommonly close to someone so utterly different...so close yet so far...
how do we manage to fall into a bottomless pit and still feel so strongly as we plummet into the abyss?
it is strange that we are most apart with the ones we connect so closely to...
irony?
maybe...
the hurt is unbearable yet we live for the seconds that make our hearts jump...
amazing what a strangers glance can do...
even amazing how much of a stranger someone could become when feelings are not reciprocated...
here nor there...in nor out...love nor loved...
dun mind me..I'm talking gibberish...

until another page...keep the vigil alive...

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Gimme The First Taste


I am in love with Fiona Apple <3

Hello New Year, it's nice to meet you ;)


The New Year had come and gone and I still feel like I’m stuck in the past. I had a minor farewell with 2009 and had not even had the chance to greet 2010. ‘Hello 2010, its nice meeting you. Hope you prove to be a better year than before.’ It’s not that 2009 was horrible, just that, I guess, it didn’t go the way I had imagined to. There were good times of course but the bad ones remains vivid. Here are a few random things that had happened back in 2009:

1.It started with the bangs of fireworks over the area where I lived.
2.Fell in love with the 22nd floor apartment where I lived. The view was amazing.
3.Discovered some things about me that I guess was within me all this time. And it is great!
4.Lost weight ;)
5.Gained back the weight :p
6.Made new friends. Which one can never get enough of ;)
7.Got a guitar for my birthday! Yay! Still practicing my hardest to be somewhat decent at it (it’s going kinduh okay I guess haha.)
8.Got to know my sister a little better and enjoying her company even more. I love you sis!!
9.Discovered new indie/obscure artistes and bands who creates amazing music.
10.My dreams, wishes and wants still remains the same and this is wonderful as it means I am still the same person that I was before :D

The time that was given is now gone. Every second that passes, is a second that can never be recovered. If life was looked at through this perspective, then you would understand how little time we are allotted. It makes us think twice on the ways we chose to spend it.

Well, here’s to 2010. A year that is gonna be mine. Not because it will be, but because I am gonna make it that way. As much as a hopeless romantic as I am, I know that we and we alone can chose our path to destiny. Nothing falls on to your laps by chance (if they do, then lucky you). Make every second count. Life is but a fragile uncertainty. You don’t want to have any regrets…

P.S. : I love you…